Maybe never..

Life is a parade of relationships,  mostly.
Some are meant to be, most others aren't.
Some real, and most are a version of reality created for one by another both of whom are living a lie.
Some are so long,  time itself ends up having an identity crisis looking at them. While others last as long as a night or even few hours (if there have been shorter ones,  do let me know, I'll call the mayfly's and make their short  lives more miserable).

And that list just goes on, I'll save that for when I really need to bore you.

Now for the nights main.
A direct message to a certain someone in my life right now
"We started off as a confusion, swinging in between Repulsion and crazy mad lust,
Emotion and pure physical tension, misty teenage raging,  murky sheets of rejection and acceptance, and shear sundered madness.
Some How, swimming in that cocktail of chaos, we had a few ladles stirring it and some others who swung us some rope ladders,  we headed out into some clarity,
Accepting what we had been ignoring,(not very blissfully that ignorance shite)
Hit it off and landed at a "what next? " stage. Doubting if what we had was real,  second thoughts weren't real but we were hanging by a tiny thread of hope still swinging between lust and emotion.
Finally drew a well defined thread that stands like a 4th string on a bass guitar,  standing at an equilibrium called Love.
Took time to get there though we named what we had too early.
We fought like dogs, said hurtful things,  did the "two can play this game" with me almost never seeing my faults, crowning me the incorrigible King among fools.
But then when the silence kicks in, and I began that crazy thought machine of mine,  I only realise how wrongful I was in questioning your right to care about me. For only those who care, would right your wrongs.
And how madly and truly in love I was with you. And how hurting you actually made me feel much like an iron maiden,  limiting your freedom to live, how could I be so selfish that I overlook happiness,
That Which lights up my world, kill that and back to square one again,  dark ally, no where to go,  no one to lead me.
(bah I'm boring you too much again)

Long story short
I love you
And that what we have
After all the mad mad drama
Life was pretty much a soap Until now,  only turned into a brighter side, Game of thrones to Modern Family bright
With a few shades of Vampire dairies
You are something I could never have
Sometimes I just feel I'm a schizophrenic who is imagining this whole relationship(God forbid) 
Together, forever.. ?..
Maybe...